I see their faces everywhere. I hear their laughter. I dream about them. Their smiles, their faces, their hugs, their kisses, their tiny hands in mine. I miss it all. So much. I try not to talk about how much I miss them because I feel like people will think I’ve gone crazy. Why do I miss them so much? I was there for three months. Why should it affect me like this? I mean, shouldn’t I be “over it” by now? For so long I didn’t understand it. I’ve moved so many times in my life. I’m so used to saying goodbyes that it almost doesn’t phase me at all anymore. What was it about these beautiful bald-headed children in Uganda? Yes they were adorable and sweet and so full of love, but it has to be more than that. I wrote a post about it while I was still in Uganda. These children taught me how to love deeply, completely, wholeheartedly, fearlessly. I don’t think I’ve ever loved anyone like that or let anyone love me like that. It was a huge deal for me. I let them in completely. I let them dance right in and leave their little handprints right on my heart. And I think those handprints are going to be there forever. And yes, although right now it hurts so much to be away from them, it was so worth it.
“It is right for me to feel this way about all of you, because I hold you in my heart” – Philippians 1:7
How incredible that the Lord can use His little children to teach me such a huge lesson. They were such a beautiful example of the way the Lord calls us all to love. Completely, unselfishly, sacrificially, wholeheartedly, deeply. He calls us to be a mirror, reflecting His own perfect, agape love to the world. And where the Lord calls, He equips. He equips us with His Love, which dwells within us and enables us to love like Him.
Wow. It’s crazy. God is so good.
“Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God..this is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us, and sent His Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins..if we love one another, God lives in us and His love is made complete in us.” – 1 John 4:7-12