Sometimes it is so hard to follow and love You in the midst of a broken world and a broken me.

Sometimes I think life would be easier if I didn’t have to feel the pain of a world and people without You.

Sometimes I think life would be easier if I didn’t realize the extent of my own sin.

But my heart has been wrecked by You.

I have tasted Your love and grace and goodness and power and now my heart beats with Yours and breaks with Yours.

Oh Lord, may I see this breaking as a blessing, as a way to know You more deeply and love You more truly.

Lord, may I not seek for ways to protect myself from the brokenness of the world; but rather for ways

to draw near to it,

to understand it,

to feel it.

Lord, may I seek ways to pour myself out, to reach the end of myself for Your sake.

May I truly count it a joy to suffer and to feel the pain of a fallen world as Christ did.

What grace!

That you would allow Your children to suffer for Your sake.

That you would grow our hearts and deepen our intimacy with You through pain and brokenness.

You are so sovereign,

so good,

so gracious.